Is that what I want?

Fought again, with my mom..
she always like that...
i just show her the book of Studying abroad in Japanese,
she talked a lots, in single mode - -
and i fought with her again.

She is unreasonable,
she doesn't listen to me when i want to tell her what i want to do.

Never mind...even that's my real dream...
just...abandon it.
i can't make it without any help.

maybe i will be regretful for what i decide to do now...
but...just let it go....

i want...to be.....
well i know there are a lot of reasons for me to decline if i don't want to do it...
the only thing i can do...is improve improve and improve...
finish the course in TOA,  then is the decision time.
STAY? AMERICA? JAPAN? OR OTHERS?
so don't worry about it now, it's still not the time.

I'm changing...by environment? no...
i just....i have no idea about my change

i'm changing to selfish, irresponsible...
......

i love S3S...really...even if i'm seemed not the one of them....